Drawing Closer to a Realization

I like things that I can work out.

I like things that I can handle, touch, and grasp onto. That doesn't mean it has to be a physical object. I like ideas that are new, interesting to me, and force me to think. I like problems that I can mentally solve. I like concepts that make sense.
I like beliefs that I can see the truth in, even if I don't agree.
But most of all, I like things that I can work out.

I have now seen this movie 4 times. That's an impressive number for me especially since it came out 4 years ago. I go months, years even without seeing it, and then one day I have an earnest desire to see it again. I'm never able to pinpoint exactly why specifically I want to see it again, I just know that I need to.
Once I start watching it, I remember why I wanted to and needed to see it. The "why" is not important for you. But it is desperately important for me.

I've been thinking a lot lately.

Thinking is not something that I can do a lot in school. That sounds oxymoronish but anyone who has ever been in school knows that it's true. When in school, you think about papers, tests, class notes, and things happening at school. You don't spend much time thinking about things outside of school.
I find myself collecting thoughts during school that I want to explore later, but I never find the time. In school, there isn't time to think.
Then, suddenly, when I have the time (like this gorgeous spring break) those thoughts come flooding back. So fast, so hard, so painful, so many that I can't keep them straight. I start talking about them and I talk for hours. I can sit for hours and talk about what you would consider nothing with a friend. I can walk for a long time with a friend and not even realize the pouring rain because I'm so caught up in working things out. I can work by myself for hours, doing meaningless tasks, and be surprised by how quickly time passes because I'm caught up in my thoughts.

I like things that I can work out. The perfect thing, however, is something that cannot be entirely worked out. It needs to be just far enough above you that you're constantly grasping, just far enough ahead of you that you're constantly striving, and just important enough that you're constantly learning more about it.

I can't work this problem out entirely, but I'm going to keep grasping.
I can't figure this movie out entirely, but I'm going to keep striving.
I can't figure this important thing out entirely, but I'm going to keep learning.
I like drawing closer to realizations. It makes me want to know more.