20 days

I count down to very few things. The NFL kickoff is of course one of them. (147 days to go) But today the number 20 is very, very attractive. In 20 days, I will have finished my last final. That's all I have left. 20 days. While that number is looking incredibly attractive, I must admit that it is also an incredibly scary number. I have to finish everything that's due in 20 days. I'm not even sure that's humanly possible.

As much as I hate to admit it, I am homework-obsessed. One of my greatest fears is walking into a classroom, and not having completed the work that is due for that class period.
Subsequently, I have never turned in anything late.
Subsequently, I have never walked into a class unprepared.
Subsequently, I think about homework all the time.
Subsequently, I never, ever feel like I can completely relax while school is in session.
Even when I plan ahead to give myself a few days off, I still think about school in my free moments. During the normal school week I still plan what I should be doing in the next few days. Every morning at work (for all of you who don't know, I go to work before school every morning, I go in around 5) I plan out what I'm going to do with my free hours. What I want to accomplish in them. I think about what's do for each class. I plan lunch times and visiting, but the schoolwork is always there lingering in my mind. I wish I could get back to it, I wish I could have days to just do homework, and then let this burden fall off my shoulders. In case you're totally worried about my state of mind, rest assured that I do have plenty of fun during the school year, but I always wish that I could stop thinking about homework all the time.

And I will in 20 more days.

I wonder what I'll feel like when I walk out of my last final, when I leave that room and head on home, when I go upstairs and put away my schoolbag for good. Joy, contentment, loss of purpose, relief, despair, assurance, bored, excited, empty, thrilled. I have no idea which of these emotions I'll feel, but whichever it happens to be, I'll be sure to let you know.

-You probably won't be hearing from me for about um, I don't know maybe 21 more days.